Hello. My name is Shannon. And I'm a guilty writer.
At first...I thought it was dedication.
Turning off my phone so I could write without interruption. Setting aside time each evening and weekend for writing. Staying up just a little later than normal. Waking up just a tiny bit earlier.
And then...the guilt started.
Soon the idea of a movie--2 whole hours of uninterrupted entertainment--tied my stomach up in knots. I felt guilty when I watched TV--so guilty I kept my laptop at my side, and snuck in a little proofreading during commercials. Then I cut out TV all together. Books even started piling up. How could I read someone else's story when I wasn't done with my own?
It got worse.
Sleep became nonexistent. Meals scarce. I even cut out Twitter (well, for the most part. I can't live without a *little* bit of Twitter.)
And still the guilt loomed.
I told myself, "When I finish my revision things will go back to normal."
Except...it's been five days since I finished my revision, and the guilt hasn't lessoned.
If anything it's worse.
Now it's not just my current draft--it's the next book as well.
How can I spare any time for myself when I have a new book to write, plus the old one to try to sell?
How can I sit and enjoy a TV show or a concert when I have an outline to write and Zombiedillo haunting me until I do?
How will I ever balance the responsibilities of writing with the desire to have some semblance of a life?
There has to be a way.
So I'm taking the first step today and admitting I have a problem.
And...I'm wondering if I'm not alone.
How about you--are YOU a guilty writer?