Most of the stress was my fault. My querying went really quick (2 weeks--not that I'm complaining) which meant I never really got a break from the time when the last revision ended and this one began. So I've wasted huge chunks of time staring at my draft thinking, *whines* 'I don't WANNA read this again!' I mean, you know, I LOVE my MS--but I've also read it a millionty-bazillion times and I'm a little sick of it I'd like to read something new.
I also wasn't used to getting notes on an entire MS at once (my CPs and I always work chapter to chapter) so it felt like I was SLAMMED with comments, when really, once I broke it down chapter by chapter, it wasn't so bad. It actually wasn't bad at all. But that didn't mean I didn't waste a couple weeks staring at the whole list thinking, I hate my life 'how am I going to do this?'
So yeah...it's been a rough few weeks. And it's not over yet. But I'm pulling through.
Part of it was going dark. It's amazing how much more time I have without Twitter and G-Chat and answering a zillion emails. Who knew how much time that sucked? And my wonderful husband has been amazing, and really stepped up with the chores to free up as much time for me as he could.
But those aren't the only things that have helped me through.
For one thing, I've been surrounded by so much love and support from my friends in the online community, many of whom took the time to send me encouraging emails that required no response, cards in the mail, a single tweet telling me they missed me. Several even did blog posts cheering me on (I won't provide links because it's embarrassing to link you guys to posts about me). But I wanted you all to know that I have snuck out of hiding long enough to soak those up and get the boost I need to keep going (and yes, most of them also made me a bit teary eyed. But...but...how can I not when someone reads my pages and then posts about loving them?)
And as if all that weren't enough, today my doorbell rang (which was unfortunate because I was wearing my husband's Spider-Man T-Shirt and super baggy shorts and no make-up--I looked HOT when I answered the door!) and IT WAS SOMEONE DELIVERING PRETTY PRETTY FLOWERS
And no, they weren't from my husband. My two awesome/amazing/inspiring/fabulous/I-don't-have-words-strong-enough-to-describe-how-wonderful-they-are CPs (The Sara(h)s) sent me flowers to cheer me up (and boy did they with their card message. I love gifts from writers--they write the best messages ever. I was laughing AND crying!) I know I already thanked them yesterday, but Sara(h)s--if you're reading this? Thank you so much! Seriously...<3!
So yeah, it's been tough and it's not over yet, but I'm going strong. I've stopped freaking out enough to add blogging and blog hopping back into my schedule, and I'll slowly start adding in some of the other things I've cut off as needed. Thank you all for your patience and support--you really have helped me keep going!
Which is why I'd love to ask you: How do YOU keep going?
What keeps you slaving away at your work when you're ready to give up?