Not sure if you realize this, but I've had to make some CRAZY decisions these last 6 months. I completely rewrote the last 1/3 of my book, queried, signed with an agent, and now I'm completely revising huge chunks of my book again.
So there's been a lot of OMG WHAT DO I DO?????
And I've found my way by going with my gut.
Has it been easy?
Signing with Laura was pretty simple.
(it was basically OMG YOU WANT TO REP ME--OKAY!!!!!!)
But other times it's been terrifying.
Like querying Laura in the first place.
I never told you guys this, but I had other agents request my pages at the conference where I met Laura. One even requested a full instead of a partial.
They were all amazing.
They were all with Andrea Brown.
And I could only query one.
The obvious choice was to query the agent who'd asked for the full. She was awesome and sweet and, um, she asked for the full!
But...I had a good feeling about Laura.
So after three weeks of obsessing (and the numerous people I emailed for advice can testify to this) I realized I already knew what to do. That 'good feeling' was my gut telling me something. And it was time to stop ignoring it.
I think you know the rest from there...
Except, now I'm in revision--and working with an agent is very different from working with CPs. I feel obligated to accept every note she gives me, because, um, she's LAURA RENNERT--I'm pretty sure she knows better than me.
But I still have to trust myself too.
There have been a few times where I could agree with her "issue" but maybe not her solution--and I was so nervous about deviating from her notes that I was psyching myself out of revising altogether. So I finally decided to go with my gut.
I revised the chapter the way I thought it needed to be, sent her the pages to check (along with a lengthy email explaining my reasons for the decision) and tried not to panic as I waited for her reaction.
(*Happy Dances again*)
My solution still addressed her issues, so she was happy with the changes I did and didn't make.
Does this mean I'm going to ignore all her suggestions?
Of course not. 99% of them are so spot on I kinda want to smack myself for not figuring them out on my own.
But for that tiny 1% where it's a little iffy?
I'm going with my gut.
Even though it doesn't feel like it, I *might* actually know what I'm doing. Well...sometimes. And I have to trust myself enough to listen to my instincts.
It's not easy. And it's definitely scary. But it's working.
So I STRONGLY encourage you guys to do the same.
GO WITH YOUR GUT!
I have no doubt you'll find your way to exactly where you want to be. :)