So, it's NaNoRevisMo day five, and I have some major catching up to do. Yesterday I was pretty much as unproductive as I could be. Progress on my draft?
I have the whole thing printed up and marked with what changes I want/need to make (including a number of scenes marked "Crap--remove and try again!" and a couple dozen post-it notes filled with plot /character suggestions I need to apply. I just can't seem to make myself do any of it.
To be fair, Wednesdays are my worst day of the week (I'm gone from 10 am to 10 pm and can only write from ten to midnight). But last night I just couldn't find the will to do it. I couldn't find the will to do anything. Honestly, I couldn't tell you what I did last night. I didn't write. I didn't read. It's a mystery.
But there's also a deeper problem I'm battling, one I'm not quite sure how to deal with. I researched this book for a year and a half before I started it, and then I've been writing it every day since January, which basically means I have ate/slept/breathed/dreamed/and lived this book for over two years. And I'm kinda sick of it.
Don't get me wrong, I still love the story, love the characters, and there are some scenes that I just absolutely adore. But...I'm ready to be done. I'm ready to move on to book two, explore the plot lines I have prepared for that, watch the characters grow up a bit. And I can't because book one isn't done. I know it will never get done unless I finish it (vicious circle) but I'm having a hard time finding the will to do it.
Can I just fast forward through the next two months of editing and revising and re-writng and skip to the part where it's done and perfect and ready to be queried? (or--even better--can I skip the whole querying process and go straight to the seven book deal?) Is that so much to ask?
Okay, enough whining.
It's NaNoRevisMo and I have critique partners on my side so I'm going to regroup today and (as soon as I get home from work) put in a full evening of revising. Cut, change, re-write, edit--I will do it all.
Look out book one.
You may have thwarted me yesterday--but tonight it's on!